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### Part 7

The diagnosis arrived like bad weather after the roof had already been repaired.

Early-stage frontotemporal dementia.

That was what the neurologist told Evaleigh, who told Aunt Maris, who told Nyra, who sat with the information at our kitchen table for almost an hour before speaking.

The house smelled like cinnamon from the candle she had lit and forgotten. Orson was upstairs building a cardboard city. I was across from her, watching the word dementia move through our marriage like a ghost looking for a chair.

“It explains some things,” Nyra said finally.

“Yes.”

“Not all things.”

“No.”

She looked relieved that I had said it.

That mattered.

A diagnosis can explain a fire. It does not unburn the house.

Thaddeus had always been arrogant. Always classist. Always convinced he understood people better than they understood themselves. The disease may have loosened the bolts. It did not build the machine.

“What happens now?” Nyra asked.

“With him?”

“With us.”

“Nothing changes about Orson.”

She nodded immediately. “No contact.”

“No contact.”

“What about my mother?”

I exhaled.

Evaleigh had moved out permanently. She had started therapy. She had sent one letter through Sable, addressed not to Orson but to us. It did not ask for access. It did not excuse Thaddeus. It listed what she had known and failed to question.

That list was short.

Still long enough.

“She enabled him,” I said.

“I know.”

“She signed the petition.”

“I know.”

“She let him use our child because it was easier than standing against her husband.”

Nyra swallowed. “I know.”

“But she didn’t write the letters. She didn’t coach him. She didn’t throw away the lunches.”

“No.”

I leaned back.

“So the question isn’t whether she deserves access.”

Nyra looked at me.

“The question is whether access could be safe and good for Orson.”

Tears filled her eyes.

“I hate how fair you are sometimes.”

“I’m not being fair. I’m being careful.”

We asked Orson three days later, during a session with Dr. Bell.

Not at home, where he might try to protect our feelings. Not casually, where the question might feel like a trap. Dr. Bell helped frame it.

“Your grandma has asked if someday, with rules, she might see you,” Dr. Bell said. “You do not have to decide today. You do not have to say yes. You do not have to say no.”

Orson pressed a toy dinosaur into the carpet.

“Would Grandpa be there?”

“No,” Nyra said quickly. “Never.”

“Would Grandma talk about him?”

“No,” I said. “That would be one of the rules.”

He thought for a long time.

“I miss her cookies,” he said.

Nyra smiled through tears.

“Anything else?” Dr. Bell asked gently.

“I miss when she read books and did the voices.”

Then he looked at me.

“Would you be mad?”

“No.”

“Really?”

“Really.”

He nodded slowly. “Maybe at the library. Not her house.”

So that was where we began.

A Saturday morning at the public library, in the children’s reading room, with Nyra sitting beside Orson and me two tables away pretending to read a magazine about home insulation. Evaleigh arrived in a gray coat, no pearls, no perfume, no dramatic tears. She looked smaller without Thaddeus beside her.

She stopped three feet from Orson.

“Hi, sweetheart,” she said.

Orson leaned against Nyra. “Hi.”

Evaleigh’s eyes shone, but she did not reach for him.

“I brought the book about the bear detective,” she said. “Only if you want.”

He looked at the book. Then at her.

“Does Grandpa know you’re here?”

“No.”

“Good.”

Evaleigh nodded as if she deserved that. “Yes. Good.”

The visit lasted thirty minutes.

She read the bear detective book and did all the voices.

She did not mention Thaddeus. She did not ask for a hug. She did not cry until she reached her car afterward. I watched through the window as she bent over the steering wheel and shook.

Nyra saw too.

She did not go outside.

That was growth.

Over the next several months, our life rebuilt itself around boundaries.

Library visits twice a month. Then a supervised picnic at the park. Then one school play where Evaleigh sat three rows behind us and clapped quietly when Orson, dressed as a planet, forgot one line and invented a better one.

Thaddeus moved into a memory care facility in Naperville.

Evaleigh visited him on Wednesdays and Sundays. She never asked us to come. She never asked Orson to make a card. She never sent updates unless Nyra asked.

Once, Nyra did ask.

Evaleigh answered honestly.

“Some days he knows there is a court order. Some days he thinks Callan stole his office. Some days he asks why Orson hasn’t come to dinner. I tell him he hurt Orson and cannot see him. Sometimes he cries. Sometimes he calls me a liar.”

Nyra read the message aloud.

Orson was not in the room.

“Do you feel sorry for him?” she asked me.

I thought about it.

“Yes.”

Her face tightened.

“And I still don’t forgive him,” I added.

She breathed out.

“Both can be true,” I said.

That became one of the strange lessons of that year. Feelings did not line up like numbers. There was pity without forgiveness. Grief without invitation. Memory without obligation.

I never saw Thaddeus again.

That was not an accident.

He sent one letter through Mercer Prynne before the court blocked further attempts. It was addressed to Nyra, written in shaky handwriting unlike his old perfect script.

“My intentions were honorable.”

Nyra read it once.

Then she placed it in the fireplace.

We watched it curl and blacken.

“Do you want to save it for records?” I asked.

“No,” she said. “We have enough evidence.”

So we let that one become ash.

As for Orson, children are miracles partly because they can return to themselves after adults try to steal them.

He started eating lunch every day.

He stopped checking the locks by spring.

He still hated turkey sandwiches for a while, so I switched to chicken wraps, then pasta salad, then peanut butter with banana slices because healing sometimes looks like changing the menu.

He and I finished the model rocket in April. Black and silver, with one crooked fin and his initials painted on the side. We launched it at a county park under a bright windy sky.

It shot upward with a sharp hiss, higher than I expected, sunlight flashing off the silver stripe.

Orson jumped and shouted, “That was awesome!”

Nyra filmed it. Evaleigh watched from a picnic table at the edge of the field, invited by Orson, approved by us, still outside the center of the family but no longer entirely beyond the fence.

The parachute opened late.

For one breath, I thought the rocket would crash.

Then the canopy caught, and it drifted down into the grass.

Orson ran after it, laughing.

I stood there with the launch controller in my hand, and I felt something inside me finally loosen.

Not disappear.

Loosen.

That evening, as I packed his lunch for the next school day, Orson wandered into the kitchen.

“Dad?”

“Yeah?”

“Can you put a note in tomorrow?”

I looked at him.

For months, I had waited for him to ask. I had tucked notes in occasionally, but only after checking. The letters had made paper dangerous for a while.

“What do you want it to say?”

He shrugged, suddenly shy.

“Something normal.”

Normal.

That word could have knocked me to my knees.

I wrote the note on a square of yellow paper.

“Have a good day, rocket man. I love you. Dad.”

I folded it once and handed it to him.

“You want to read it first?”

He took it, opened it, smiled, and folded it back.

“Okay,” he said. “Put it on top.”

So I did.